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I watch
from afar
People
People who laugh
People who smile
People who have fun
and I think to myself, “How do people become 'happy'”?
When I was a kid, I felt this feeling. This feeling of happy. This feeling came when I am with my family. When I’m with my friends. When I’m just having fun.
But now, as a teen, “happy” is gone. My friends have left me. I'm not close to my family anymore.
Everyone around me are feeling this “happy”. I can see it. They are smiling and laughing. Friends chat with each other and laugh. Families play games together. Couples hold hands with content looks on their faces. How can I become happy?
We all know this feeling. It’s a good feeling. Some of us can describe it. Some of us cannot. I am one of those people who cannot, for I had forgotten how “happy” feels like.
I’m jealous of those people who are happy.
Everyday isn’t exactly a day of sadness. More like a neutral feeling. A gray feeling. A feeling with no color.
I’m jealous of those people with color.
It’s like a kid’s coloring book. Every page is colored with bright and cheerful emotions. Except just one page. That one page would be me. Everyday I would wait. I would wait for my page to be colored.
So everyday I watch. How can I be happy? I want someone to teach me how to be happy. I don’t want to be blank coloring page. I don’t want to be a blank painting canvas. I don’t want to be...empty.
I want to be happy. But I can’t. I don’t know how to be happy.
As the days pass,
I eventually forgot how to smile. I had no reason to. It was that way for a long time and I had decided to give up.
Until I met one special person.
You.
from afar
People
People who laugh
People who smile
People who have fun
and I think to myself, “How do people become 'happy'”?
When I was a kid, I felt this feeling. This feeling of happy. This feeling came when I am with my family. When I’m with my friends. When I’m just having fun.
But now, as a teen, “happy” is gone. My friends have left me. I'm not close to my family anymore.
Everyone around me are feeling this “happy”. I can see it. They are smiling and laughing. Friends chat with each other and laugh. Families play games together. Couples hold hands with content looks on their faces. How can I become happy?
We all know this feeling. It’s a good feeling. Some of us can describe it. Some of us cannot. I am one of those people who cannot, for I had forgotten how “happy” feels like.
I’m jealous of those people who are happy.
Everyday isn’t exactly a day of sadness. More like a neutral feeling. A gray feeling. A feeling with no color.
I’m jealous of those people with color.
It’s like a kid’s coloring book. Every page is colored with bright and cheerful emotions. Except just one page. That one page would be me. Everyday I would wait. I would wait for my page to be colored.
So everyday I watch. How can I be happy? I want someone to teach me how to be happy. I don’t want to be blank coloring page. I don’t want to be a blank painting canvas. I don’t want to be...empty.
I want to be happy. But I can’t. I don’t know how to be happy.
As the days pass,
I eventually forgot how to smile. I had no reason to. It was that way for a long time and I had decided to give up.
Until I met one special person.
You.
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Just something I came up with...right now...
Sorry for this...thing... xD
Anyway,
this was kind of true about me.
Months ago, I was this person. I watched people from afar, wondering how to be happy. And yes I was about to give up. But unlike this story, it wasn't just one person that made me happy. It was a bunch of people. My friends. For family, I felt that I wasn't close to my parents as I was when I was younger. But of course I learned that I was wrong. And I did truly feel like a blank coloring page.
Don't worry though. My page has been colored fully.
To those people who feel like they have empty coloring pages, don't worry. There will be someone in your life who will color your page and show you happiness. Whether they are your friends, family, your soul mate, pet, or just anything or anyone really.
And to the people who already have their page colored, go ahead and color someone else's page. So they will know how "happy" feels like. It will mean alot to them.
And just an added note, the story starts with "I" and ends with "You".
Sorry it kind of ended abruptly. I kind of want to leave the rest to your imagination. Or kind of relate it to your situation. Like I said above, whoever colors your page may be your friends, family, your soul mate, pet, or just anything or anyone really.
Also, what/who make you happy? What/who was the first thing that popped in your head when you read the very last word? ^^ Just a small thought.
fav.me/d7ksmer <--- A good friend of mine wrote this. Please read it if you haven't already. It's called "Broken Toys"
Anyways,
Thank you everyone
For coloring my page
Sorry for this...thing... xD
Anyway,
this was kind of true about me.
Months ago, I was this person. I watched people from afar, wondering how to be happy. And yes I was about to give up. But unlike this story, it wasn't just one person that made me happy. It was a bunch of people. My friends. For family, I felt that I wasn't close to my parents as I was when I was younger. But of course I learned that I was wrong. And I did truly feel like a blank coloring page.
Don't worry though. My page has been colored fully.
To those people who feel like they have empty coloring pages, don't worry. There will be someone in your life who will color your page and show you happiness. Whether they are your friends, family, your soul mate, pet, or just anything or anyone really.
And to the people who already have their page colored, go ahead and color someone else's page. So they will know how "happy" feels like. It will mean alot to them.
And just an added note, the story starts with "I" and ends with "You".
Sorry it kind of ended abruptly. I kind of want to leave the rest to your imagination. Or kind of relate it to your situation. Like I said above, whoever colors your page may be your friends, family, your soul mate, pet, or just anything or anyone really.
Also, what/who make you happy? What/who was the first thing that popped in your head when you read the very last word? ^^ Just a small thought.
fav.me/d7ksmer <--- A good friend of mine wrote this. Please read it if you haven't already. It's called "Broken Toys"
Anyways,
Thank you everyone
For coloring my page
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I wonder it too